just as I thought it was alright to tell my kids that their grandmother my mother was coming out to see them for the first time in two years she called and cancelled. I guess I should be happy that it was a whole two days before she was supposed to, but I'm not.
My relationship with my mom was not this hard. Did I really try with my mom? I feel like I'm a kid wishing for Christmas but all I want is for my mother to be a grandmother to my children.
Maybe I'll shoot for this summer, perhaps.